I Ain't No Quitter

Hello from the Franklin house. My pledge to update more often hasn't worked out so well. Seeing as this is my journal, here's a look into a week in my life right now. Let's look at next week's schedule, shall we?

Sunday: Small group-9:30, Church-10:45, Hanging out with Greg and Carson-afternoon, Studying-evening
Monday-Leave house at 8:00 for 10:00 appt in Caruthersville, work in Caruthersville until 1:00, drive to Cape, stop at office briefly, meet with teachers in Cape at 3:30, see theapy kiddo from 4:15-5:15, drive to Jackson for 6:00 Weight Watchers meeting until 6:30, cook dinner, do homework, sleep
Tuesday-Leave at 7:30 for 9:00 appointment in Poplar Bluff, work in Poplar Bluff until 1:00, drive back to Cape and stop at office briefly, see therapy kiddo from 4:15 to 5:15, grab dinner, go to class from 6:30-9:30, come home, sleep
Wednesday-Answer office phones from 8-4. Rush across campus to teach class from 4:15-7:00, come home, cook dinner, study, bed
Thursday-Work in office 8:00-9:00, drive to Fredericktown for lunch meeting and training, drive back to Cape, see therapy kiddo from 4:15-5:15, go to class from 6:30-9:20, come home, sleep
Friday-Drive to Advance to see therapy kiddo from 9:00-10:00, drive from Advance to Oak Ridge, do practicum hours at Oak Ridge from 12-4, drive home and grab stuff for scrapbooking from 6:30-11:00
Saturday-not yet scheduled, but sure to be a full day of housecleaning, grocery shopping, and general catch-up work

I've been feeling a bit over scheduled lately. I may have even given a fleeting thought to not going to school anymore. However, when I look at the amount of "stuff" I have to do every week and realize that I am actually doing it all and doing most of it pretty well, I start to feel better. I keep reminding myself that I will likely never be taking two night classes and teaching a night class in the same week ever again after this semester, and I start to feel better. I remind myself that when I finish this program, I will be working in a field I find exciting and I'll be helping people in a whole new way, and I start to feel better. I remind myself that week after next is midterm and I'll be halfway through this hellish schedule and I start to feel better. I remind myself that, " I ain't no quitter," and everything is temporary and I start to feel better. I remind myself that Greg and Carson are handling my absence and my crabbiness when it's study time very well, and I start to feel better.

My hope is that a year from now when I'm nearing the end of this program, or possibly finished with it, I am going to feel such a huge sense of accomplishment. I hope that I can look back on this time when I'm feeling overwhelmed in the future and remember that I did all this "stuff" and survived.

Pep talk over. I've got studying to do.